LETTING GO AND LETTING GOD
“A righteous man will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. His heart is secure, he will have no fear.”
– Psalm 112: 6-8
I am a fixer. Not of material things by any means, but if I see a problem or someone hurting, I feel a need to step in and make the situation better! The problem with this is, I don’t always know all the facts or “my better” isn’t necessarily “the better” that they really need. On top of this, I am also a worrier. I often lay awake at night trying to figure out how I can make the hurt or the problem “better”!
Needless to say, this quarantine has stifled my abilities to take control of the situations that have come up around me. The two words that seem to be constant in this problem is “I” and “control”! I can’t seem to take or keep control of whatever is happening around me!
Shortly after the quarantine began, my dad became ill. He and my mom lives in an assisted living facility and they are truly quarantined. I couldn’t get in and they couldn’t get out. I tried my best to “fix” this situation by calling doctors and calling the staff where they lived. I would stand outside the window and talk to my mom about what she could do to make things “better” for them inside. Nothing seemed to be working. Dad was just getting weaker and weaker. My other siblings were working and trying, but we couldn’t get the results we wanted.
I cried I worried, and I prayed! It took a while but I began to understand that it wasn’t in my hands and that my timeline and my pushing wasn’t working. I needed to stop trying to fix things, stop worrying over situations, and stop trying to control. I needed to rest in God and allow Him to work His perfect plan for my parents in His perfect timing. He knew things I didn’t know about. He knew what needed to happen and when to get the help my dad needed. Even the problems that came up were real solutions that were better than what we were working on! I needed to start trusting! Waiting and not knowing is so hard. But when we rest in The Father and allow His will to be done, the outcome is so much better than if I would have “fixed it”. He sees what we don’t see, He knows the needs before they are there and He provides in ways we never could!
Dad is doing better. God provided a way to get treatment and he and mom are getting help now. It’s not the outcome I was trying to make happen, but it’s the outcome they needed and what’s best for them. God even provided a few extra blessings along the way that we didn’t expect. What have I learned through this? Let go and let God take control. He is the real “fixer”.
Pray: Father help us in this unusual and trying time to turn to You, rest in You, and trust in Your perfect will and timing for us.
“But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; They will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.” – Isaiah 40:31
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